February 3, 2024

It's an hour into the day, or fifty-nine minutes and fifty-four seconds to be precise.

Why do I feel the need to write about what I'm going to write about? I shouldn't be going into the amount of detail that this page will explore. If you are mentally vulnerable, it will be actively harmful to delve deeper into this article.

Society, at least in most of the English-speaking world, is progressing towards a structure with more focus on mental health issues and treatment. At least, it seems so? Why do I still feel so isolated with nowhere to turn and no one who can actually change anything about my own mental issues?

The only people who directly have the power to actually change anything also have the power to heavily restrict my freedoms "for my own safety". Giving a psychologist the tools they need to treat mental health issues (MHI) is also effectively giving them ammo to contribute to situations that prolong and exaggerate the issues they're there to treat. Specifically, a trained psychologist who I tell my grievances to simply cannot idle after they become informed of my past and current interactions with mentally ill individuals. As mentioned on a previous rambling on my first personal site, I have had a number of friends and influences burden through struggles that ended in fatal harm to themselves.

I've grieved for them. All the while, I couldn't shake the feeling of jealousy, each time it happened. It can't truly be uncommon to want to swap places with a person to bring them back to life? It's a loss for their friends and family, sure, but... their goal was achieved. What they have desired and thought heavily about, potentially for years, has finally been achieved. They no longer are experiencing the harm that pushed them towards their action. Would it make sense to force a living being to indefinitely prolong their suffering, living with no quality of life? It's easy to understand an assisted death for people with visible, physical malfunctions. A person with mentally health issues is not automatically incapable of making autonomous decisions. The term MHI is a simple classification of where the issue takes place. However, people equate having a MHI to being mentally unfit or incapable, which is where this ethical issue originates.

Does having a bruised arm mean that the afflicted person should not have any opinions regarding "how bad" their pain is or make any informed decisions regarding their arm? This attitude unfortunately isn't reflected when it comes to "invisible" MHIs.

The second person was a person I've known online for years, moving halfway across the globe to live with their partner. While they lived together for a few years, I receive a message from his then-girlfriend detailing the day she found him, skin-blue, unconscious, with a poison on the shelf across from the bed and a website opened on his phone.

The site was Sanctioned Suicide. This was 2019: it was very much an underground website with low traffic at that time. Fast forward a couple of years, and it becomes the subject of legal controversy, with representatives of various outlets reporting on it, essentially indirectly promoting the site. Due to those actions in particular, I am able to post about the site without fear of any concentrated risk of harm.

When people apathetically suggest that those afflicted with MHIs "get help", I wonder if they think the mere presence of a therapist has the same effect of an antacid to treat heartburn. These people are individuals who can only treat certain MHIs, whereas many MHIs are unsolvable. Therapists are also not a cure for mental health issues.

"My mother is a traditionalist: she will be the loudest and