Music

Hikaru Utada's BAD MODE album has been the top ten tracks on my playlist with thousands of listens. Their downcast tone and themes of momentum keep my addicted to each track. It's reassuring and refreshing to see how someone else interprets the daily motions of their personal and social lives. I've created a few writings about the songs in the album; they are listed here, even though they're not all written yet.

1. BAD モード
2. 君に夢中
3. One Last Kiss
4. Pink Blood
5. Time
6. 気分じゃないの
7. 誰にも言わない
8. Find Love
9. Face My Fears
10. Somewhere Near Marseilles
11. Beautiful World
12. キレイな人 (Find Love)

There's also music from other singers and games that will each get their own individual pages soon. For now, here are a few, in no particular order.

• 誓い
• Don't Think Twice
• Sanctuary
• Passion
• Asylum
• Simple and Clean
• Mysterious Destiny
• Tomorrow is Mine
• Al Fine
• GH()ST
• My Time
• Beneath the Mask
• Last Surprise
• Life Will Change
• Rivers in the Desert
• Wake Up, Get Up, Get Out There
• Live & Learn
• Reach for the Stars
• Sonic Heroes
• Fist Bump
• Infinite
• Connected (Yours Forever)
• Lost in Thoughts All Alone
• 一人思う
• Scorching Back
• Running Hell
• 2017 Promotional Trailer (Breath of the Wild)
• Main Theme (Breath of the Wild)
• Menu (Super Smash Bros. for)
• Main Theme (Unnamed Smash Mod)
• Battlefield (Unnamed Smash Mod)
• Final Destination (Unnamed Smash Mod)

I've become attached to certain tracks and often can't function outside of my house without singing them, listening to them, or at the very least mentally listening to them. During 2018-2019, and also due to misophonia, I've had to make a specific case to my managers to allow me to wear my earbuds during work to keep my mental state in check. I've since learned to operate by listening to the music mentally, but this is the point we're at now.

There's times I have to avoid songs strictly because I want to maintain a neutral emotional state. As an example, DUET has narrative significance within the game it hails from. I have a difficult time passively listening to the song without being emotionally affected, due to various factors that aren't limited to the narrative, but real-life extrapolations stemming from it. The title theme OMORI has a more severe effect. I've recently had to physically remove myself from a room because I couldn't handle the narrative significance of inadvertently hearing a certain type of ringtone coming from another person's device. Why? You'll have to ask me about that in person.

It really doesn't make any sense. I recognise it as an issue if it's affecting my day-to-day functionality and emotions. I don't actually like this attachment I have to audio.